can have several definitions…
when alone and a realization from a past discussion usually with a personal nod
i said shitty no you said stupid, yes, no, yes, no… and i knew i was right, never a great thing to say perhaps, but i generally am observant especially when clear headed.
I see what others misperceive.
Stephanie and the no parking sign… i mean it happened often enough and i need to say anything to the blind eye NO you just know and keep on keeping on.
validation when alone… perhaps it does seem senseless to attempt convincing ones tunnel vision denial resistance to self truth
to speak the truth doesn’t mean one will like what is stated thats not the point… i often do not like anothers truth. i don’t speak it for them, i speak it for me…
to speak ones truth in my definition is stating a true feeling, not an irritated observation of ones actions.
to critique is not my truth, how i feel in my heart at the moment is the truth for me.
To feel speak for me, not you, its not about you, its never about them.
You do not meet me, i do not meet you, we are not a mix we are oil and water. I was in a momentary daze of rebelliousness and wonder lust…
too often explaining trying to help you understand me, i am not your teacher i do not want to teach. i want to swim and flow and walk in stride. it will just work, no force, no resistance, no teaching just float
open to receive each others beauty vitality individuality
you exhaust me emotionally, its like spending 3 hours with a 5 year old who is not your child. its not my job to explain myself and life to you. you are stuck in your own stories.
its painful to observe and harmful to listen, for me i must set boundaries as you will empty my lake and i need to feed my fish.